If you have been to school AT ALL in your entire life you have seen a Lost and Found. A place where children’s lost things go until they reclaim them. I don’t know about you, but when I would see a single glove sitting there in the cardboard box I would feel sad. I would feel bad for the glove because no one wanted it.
That sad little glove was me.
I sat in that cardboard box for 21 years with no owner, because I had no idea where I belonged. I spent 21 years of my life searching for my authentic happiness, and I found it in a Facebook post. The sad part is, that the same person had reached out to me months before but I declined the offer to be a part of a family of amazing women, quite frankly, because I was not ready to take the leap.
I wanted to remain that one little glove, because becoming a pair terrified me.
See.. seven months ago I was too proud to admit I WAS lost. I had a plan, and yet I was miserable. But.. because I was always the one who had her shit together out of all my friends, and because I was always the one who was going to be the rich scientist, I could not admit, not even to myself, that that life was not what wanted. Not only that, but I was even more terrified to admit that I had NO IDEA what I wanted. Joining this fitness family, would force me to work on me. It would force me to dig deep down and figure out what I wanted out of life. But, more importantly, it would force me to deal with the anxieties that I had been living with my entire life. And…
Digging deep is scary as fuck.
If you suffer from anxiety like me, or you just do not want to deal with the demons you have suppressed for all these years, I understand the apprehension you may feel towards starting this journey with me. This journey is going to be tough. It is going to cause you to look at yourself differently. It is going to cause you to question decisions you have made in your life, but remember, everything you have done in your life has led you up to this point. Everything you have done has led you to me, and this blog.
Your journey as led you to finding your Authentic Happiness.
The first thing you must do is unlock your emotional box.