Current Mood: Shitting My Pants

This time last year I made the scariest and most rewarding decision of my life: I became an online health and fitness coach. Since becoming a coach I have realized my superpowers, I have decreased my antidepressant dosage, and I have become the healthiest I have ever been. I became a coach for me. I was overweight, unconfident, unhealthy, and overall depressed. I became a coach to change my life, and in the process I have changed others’ lives.

Today I embark on the next scary journey. 

Today I am signing up for a money manifestation course run by Kathrin Zenkina. I have been struggling with my money mindset for as long as I can remember. I went from a serial shopper, to only shopping at Dollarama, to shopping for things that make me feel better but feeling guilty about it every time. Over the past 6 months I have really become conscious of my money mindset, and just how desperate and negative I act towards money. There was a point a few months ago that I would actually feel sick to my stomach whenever I went to buy groceries because I could not believe how much they were. Since becoming overly negative towards money I have racked up my Credit Card bill to over $600 over the limit. I have struggled to make payments, and I have often had to come up with plans to ask others for money. All of these things make me feel anxious and dirty.

In July, I really worked on myself. I began undergoing 3 hours of personal development a day, limiting my time on social media, and listening to thought leaders on a wide variety of issues. I opened up my heart to the Universe and it granted me with many opportunities. I realized my superpowers, and how I want to use them, and I realized just how much my money mindset is getting in the way of my business. I have big dreams, and every day when I undergo my gratitude ritual (which I learned from Kathrin Zenkina) I can clearly see the life I want to live. I actually walked into my dream house with my dream car sitting in the driveway. I found another tutoring job, I got the volunteer position I wanted, and I was able to make the minimum payments on all my bills no problem without anyone’s help. But now I am ready to take this journey to the next level, and the Universe can sense it.

While I was working on myself and overcoming a lot of confidence issues around what I wanted to do in life, I was introduced to Kathrin Zenkina. Kathrin is a money manifesting expert who personally manifested 1.5 million dollars into her life in just over 2 years. She learned from the best of the best and put everything that she learned into a 6 week course. This course costs $2000. I do not have that kind of money. I currently have just over $200 in my bank account and I am over $55K in debt from student loans and my credit card.

You are probably thinking “How the hell is this girl going to afford this course?”

Luckily for me, Kathrin offers payment plans with options to pay $200 for 12 months. THAT is how I am going to afford it. I am going to use all the money in my bank account to get into this course, because I KNOW this was divine intervention. The Universe saw I was ready to take the leap. The Universe saw the work I put in last month, and it wants me to get everything I desire, but first I have work to do on my money mindset. I am finally ready to work on it. Prior to last month I blamed the lack of revenue from my business on tangible action (even though I was taking it), other people, or actually blaming the UNIVERSE for being unfair. Little did I know, the Universe was trying to give me everything I desired, but I was blocking it from existence with my negative mindset towards money.

Here I am, on this day in August, ready to change my money mindset. 

I have changed my body. I have changed my confidence. I have found my superpowers, so what is one more thing to add to the list?? I would be lying if I did not say I was shitting my pants right now. I am putting everything I have into this course. It HAS to work. I refuse to live the life I was living before. Working 3 jobs just to pay the bills, never having time for myself, working for other people, and doing things I did NOT love just to get by. I also refuse to mooch and beg for others to give me things. I am ready to take control of my life and my finances. I am ready to go all in.

If you want to join me in this OR you want to change your life dramatically in any of the ways I have mentioned, reach out to me and we can chat. I am nowhere near where I want to be, but I do have knowledge of how to get there. If you read through this entire post take it as divine intervention and get out there and do something that scares the living crap out of you.

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